Unfocused eyes..

never to blur your vision just coz everything is trying to stop you.. never to be afraid just coz of the fact.. never to backout just coz by experience, you know it's not gonna work..

i don't know why the hell did i just typed that.. probably is coz of the sadness i'm feeling now or the sadness that someone is feeling now.. well.. i don't know what to say.. i just feel so terrible after i read my past posts.. again.. vex and heartaches had overcame me..

i tried not to be confused by the fact but still.. i do not know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing.. guess i'm afraid of repeating history ey..? i'm afraid? what a joke.. i'm afraid of nothing but myself.. well.. who are not scared of me when i finally blow up or break down? seriously.. i think i'm breaking down soon if everything wasn't going smooth..

sometimes i feel i'm mighty.. sometimes i feel i'm weak.. so which am i? mighty or weak..? neither.. i'm just a normal being trying to get what he wanted.. badly..

asians are wierd.. they portray sadness as a beauty..