iThink..

tell me why?

i thought i've overcome the fact that no one will understand me.. but somehow i just felt an urge to talk to someone.. and then.. i realise that there's no one whom i can talk to.. there are just certain things in everyone that others don't understand what he or she is going through.. maybe that's why..

well in the first place i should have blamed myself for making myself so complicated for others to understand.. i too hope that i can be simple.. easy-going.. communicatable.. but there are just some self-demands that i can't put down.. which made people around unhappy? feel helpless towards me? or maybe even hated me for being like this..

but whenever i'm in doubt of myself or whatever it is.. i always tell myself to stop dwelling into it and go on to do some other things.. and it works.. at least for me.. i guess everyone just has to find a way that works best for them..

ok this post is not making any sense.. enough whining jiafeng.. get going coz there're a lots of things waiting for you to do..

i'm so gonna get pumped up after this post.. if not i'm screwed for the big moments later.. alright jiafeng.. condense yourself.. get calm.. go into the "empty" state of mind.. and meditate.. breath in as you fill your whole body with air.. and breathe out and relax your whole body at the same time.. and i'm done.. off to sleep now..

and wow.. that's easy..

if you can't write off the past.. then stop bringing it up..