Eye carving..

sometimes it's not just me.. but sometimes it's just me.. i feel something fishy is going on.. yet i can't tell.. i wonder if all those words and actions are true.. or it's just normal behaviour.. again.. i shall say the three forbidden words.. i don't know..

i'm not worrying.. but i'm just thinking.. how good it will be if it comes true.. yet i don't feel the urge.. contradict.. something that i haven't been doing for a long time.. is it a sign to tell me that i should get serious? or is it just a symptom showing that i've grown weak?

i've always adore musics than songs.. coz musics have much more freedom in imaginations and feelings.. to be simpler.. they make you live in your own world.. but i guess i should stop it soon.. it's time to listen to some songs that describes all of reality.. maybe then i'll find my answer.. to those intersections of the available paths..

things go complicated when you do not have confidence.. do not dare to make another step.. and most importantly.. do not even know what is going on.. how i wished i've had a place.. so to end my days in the whirl pool.. unknowing of the direction..

logical mind does not work anymore when people are confused..