Self-reflections..

total sadness.. though i feel quite angry.. but more heartaches.. saddens me that they have to go through the process of knowing to make your interest your profession.. a mere passion is not enough.. which is tough.. very tough.. especially her.. argh.. i understand that personal feelings shouldn't get in the way of work.. but still..

being able to sacrifice for dance should be somewhat a happy thing for dancers.. but seeing them being so unhappy about it.. it saddens.. not that they are not able to understand.. but they have to go through the process of understanding it.. it's hard.. really hard.. even for me who already accept that fact.. reminds me of a story which a mother eagle teaches her baby how to fly by pushing him down the cliff..

i wouldn't boast.. but there're many good points that our troupe has.. and one of them is innocence.. i want to protect that.. but i guess it doesn't do them any good.. i should let them learn themselves.. but i couldn't bear.. contradiction.. it's coming again..

i wouldn't blame them.. i only have myself to blame coz i'm too eager to have everything done nicely so i wouldn't fail godma.. i'm sorry.. i'll do better.. for both the innocence i wanna protect and the accomplishment of everything entrusted to me..

a stupid thing a day keeps you happy all the way..