Down to the abyss..

i seriously need a break.. a long one.. to be away from all that is surrounding me now.. i'm tired of having to tolerate chlidish crap all the time.. perhaps quitting school and go to army will be a good choice.. maybe i should plan to prepare that now..

well.. maybe the following will sound as if everyone owed me.. but i don't care.. coz i hate this world.. i hate everything and i hate everyone.. what's more? i hate myself too.. for being a bloody stupid asshole cum idiot to have done everything i've done.. haha.. it just sucks to be me..

i've been blasting loud music to vent my anger but i don't think that is working now.. that totally sucks to the core.. i've never felt this way before.. i guess i need something to hold on to.. even if it's a spiked vine..

love and hatred are drives to live on..