Life abstraction..

i was being raised up by a very strong mindset of being a great person.. i was taught to be logical.. i was told to never allow myself to do the same mistake twice.. well.. perhaps all those got into me somehow.. that's why i can be the person i am now.. though i can't say that i'm great enough.. but well.. at least i achieve something that is quite difficult for others..

but sometimes i really envy those who have an eventful life.. with all the stupid things around.. and making a joke out of them.. which is gonna be so fun.. compare to that kinda life.. mine seems dead.. too serious.. and too boring..

i was taught that one who doesn't understand the way a "great person" work things out will only say that they have no life.. that they are crazy to be so crazy over something.. and the pickyness is simply unbearable.. these people who can't accept those "great people" are what we called commoners.. coz they don't understand the term "setting a high standard for yourself"..

but what's great of being a great person?.. take for the above as example.. your circle of friends will then be largely decreased.. even your soulmate.. if he or she cannot adapt to your way of living.. lots of problems will occur.. except for the praises you got in the surface.. there're nothing more.. at least i thought so..

know what? my mother simply cannot understand why do i have to go out to dance in noon and come back only in midnight almost everyday.. although she only complains about it once in a while.. but i know this really affects her coz i'm the only one living with her.. only my father is kinda able to understand my situation.. oh well.. what could i say? they got divorced coz of the same reason right..? coz of not being able to compromise with each other..

it's a hard life i'm leading which is too late to turn back.. so i'll lead on with a smile.. better still if i have her smile to give me more drive..

fairytale? it exist only when you believe..