Steel is the body and fire is the blood..

i still remember that i used to like to watch cartoons.. drama series.. movies about this good guy defeating this bad guy or whatsoever.. during those days.. yeap.. bad guys should be exterminated.. all those "rule the world" "all you get is emptiness" "you are bound to get hurt" seems so unreal to me back then.. i mean.. why would they make the protagonist wrong..?

but now.. i seems to understand what they are talking about and began to empathise the "bad guy".. coz what they believed and what they are saying isn't just simply something they came up and blabber those words so as to crash the beliefs of the others.. but also the truth.. it's just so happened that the more concrete truth is that in a fantasy.. the fantasy always wins the reality.. especially when we humans are sensual beings..

i don't know why i talked about this but.. maybe i'm just not in a very good mood.. or rather no mood.. after seeing something just now.. oh well.. this just shows how much longer i need to go..

here to quote something from somewhere which is my current favourite.. and i think it fits me really well..

i have withstood much pain to create many weapons..
yet, these hands will never hold anything..

sometimes the non-existent just wins the existent..