Risking my name so as to get back my name..

interesting topic huh..? but this is really what i'm doing now.. gotta gather information from everybody.. and get all things straight.. things i've heard from other people is all mixed up and not in sequence.. so i decided to do this on my own.. and also getting helps from people who is partly involved..

this time round i'm dealing with adults.. haha.. supposingly 10+ older than me.. from what i've heard.. many people says that the person that i'm dealing with pollute young minds.. and made it possible to pass rude remarks on anybody.. well.. i've already thought of some possible reason for why that person did that..

i wanna get the problems of both side solved.. i don't want to be unfair.. it seems a bit impossible.. but i'm gonna do it.. not for me.. not for the name.. not for my dearest jie jie.. but for my very own big family.. if i haven't been in this family.. the warm family.. i wouldn't be here already.. so i've got to try.. no matter what.. even if that person gave me the same ending as the others..

well.. i know the consequence is big.. so i gotta be careful for every move i made.. if i'm not careful enough.. haha.. my name might be taken away as stake already.. my name.. is it really that important..? hmm.. nah.. don't care a damn shit.. i'm doing it for the sake of my family.. i'm not gonna let anyone to destroy it.. hmm.. sounds a bit dramatic huh..? coz the words is coming from a guy like me.. hmm... nah.. the whatever of the whatever..