Forced to be..

i went to ask my friend to compose a sad and sentimental poem for me.. and hey.. she did quite well.. haha.. i kinda like that.. coz it reminds me of something.. though i forgot what it is.. hmm.. really touches my heart.. felt like crying after reading it.. but i can't.. my tears were dried up.. is it coz of the contact lenses i'm wearing..? no.. it's coz i have a soulless heart..

Jealousy starts to build up in me..
But i try to hide it so you can't see..
I forced myself to smile at you..
How much i love you, you won't have a clue..
I know if i confess, it won't change a thing..
Coz your heart is already with him..
All i can do is stay by your side..
Be there for you day and night..
I've tried to forget you, but i can't..
I wanted to give up, but i shan't..
I have hope that one day you'll see..
Just how much you mean to me..
But right now i'll just stay here..
Watching you whisper in his ear..
Watch you blush as he takes your hand..
My broken heart only you can mend..
I have hope that the very word that i long to hear..
You will one day say it out dear..
And for now all i can do is wait..
I guess i was just too late..
So i leave you two alone and walked away..
"he's my best friend" i heard you say..
A friend si all i'll ever be..
I guess you will never like me..
With that thought i kept on walking
Trying not to let you see me crying..
Hearing your laughter as you walked off together..
My eyes were red and my heart shattered..
Oh darling i really do love you..
Will you ever love me too..?