Purpose creates fate..

have you ever questioned yourself "why can i see things?".. "why am i a human?".. "if there's such thing called soul in this world.. why am i in this body?".. "why do i have to look into the mirror to look at myself?".. "if everyone is different.. why are we the same?"..

sometimes these questions really struck me when i'm alone.. thinking too much you may say.. ya ok i admit i'm thinking too much.. thinking too much about this "nature".. "predestine" thing.. but i notice one thing.. which is that those who claim they know themselves wouldn't be strucked by these questions.. whereas those who don't.. they do..

so yea.. i really don't understand myself.. what am i? what's the purpose of me being here? to live? but i wouldn't want to live for the sake of living.. is there any meaning for me to be here? or i'm just here coz everyone is here?

so bud.. i understand it's a must since i'm who i am now.. but how am i suppose to make them understand when i don't even understand myself? and just now i actually wanted to tell you to ask them to read my blog.. but i guess it will just confuse them further.. haha.. so.. yea..

and for most cases.. understanding of each other is just like opening a door.. i wanted to go in.. but they wouldn't open.. i want to let them in.. but i couldn't open.. just like i said before.. if no one is telling the truth.. what more can i do? and if no one is telling the truth to even their best among friends there.. what the hell can i do?

nonetheless.. i'm quite aware of what you are concerned about.. time is the best rope to tie us together.. but whether they escaped from it before the knot is dead is another thing.. coz from what i understand and what i believe.. both of us will always stay inside the loop..

to be able to see what's unseen by most people.. is really terrifying..