Guys are dumb ass... -.-

something happened recently... made me feel that... i'm so damn stupid.. i always thought i'm clever.. but.. well.. guess i'm just as stupid as all normal guys.. haha..

i'm so sorry for being so dumb and stupid.. hmm... maybe i was being uncertain and confuse at first.. but not anymore.. i'll try to be more clever ok..? =)

anyway.. here to share with all of you a story.. a story that i took out from a book that i bought years ago.. i'll be writing it in chinese coz my english language is lousy..

那天，是我和他认识与相恋的第一个情人节，也是我期盼已久的日子，所以对我而言，是具有非常重大的意义。当时，我一直在猜： 我的男朋友会用什么方式来庆祝？他会不会给我一个surprise？

说真的，一想到他，我的心一直跳着，我怕他是不是会在这个浪漫的节日中，亲自送一大束花到我打工的店来？万一他真的送一大束花来，刚好店里还有客人，那我岂不糗死？或是，他会不会请花店店员送一大把玫瑰花来，递到我面前，要我签收？而我如果看到玫瑰花上写着 "亲爱的，我爱你！"的卡片，我一定会和那些电视演员一样，一副惊喜得目瞪口呆的样子，然后亲吻着卡片说起：“哦，亲爱的，我也永远爱你！”

可是，打工的时间一分一秒的过去，随着时间的消逝，我的心从原本的兴奋与期待，逐渐转为失望和难过。

算了吧，如果他没有心也是没办法。下班吧，情人节，你的时间已经快过去了。

当我走去店门口时，突然有九辆摩托车呼啸而来，随即在我身旁停住 ; 我吓了一大跳，怎么会有“飞车党”出现？当我定神一看，原来是他和一大票同学！天哪，搞什么鬼嘛？没有玫瑰花，没有巧克力，更没有浪漫的相依相偎 ; 他叫我上摩托车，说要一起到海岸夜游，一起庆祝情人节。

我愣住了，这是什么嘛？那有人庆祝情人节是一大票人一起庆祝的？那有什么情调嘛？

说真的，他的突然出现，我很惊讶，也很高兴 ； 可是一想到它事前都不告诉我，而且一见面，也不先问我的意见，就要我上摩托车一起去夜游！当时我很生气地对他臭骂 ：“你搞什么鬼啊？今天是情人节耶，你找一堆人出来干嘛？无聊！我累了，你自己跟他们去吧！去了最好不要回来，不 - 要 - 再 - 回 - 来！”我失控的对男友大吼着，脸上的泪珠也忍不住一行行地掉落。

其实我怎么会累呢？再怎么累，我也都期盼跟你在一起啊！即使我们俩整晚不睡觉，我也不会关上一眼，更不会喊累啊！可是你为什么要在情人节的夜里，找一大票死党来当电灯泡呢？

“对不起啦，你以前不是说喜欢人多，喜欢热闹吗?我以为大家一起热热闹闹的玩，最能使你开心啊！”男友十分紧张地说。

“你去死啦，这样我会开心啊？今天又是情人节耶，又不是愚人节或耶诞节。”我满脸泪水，愤怒的说：“我要回去了，你不要再来找我了！”

“对不起啦，你不要生气啦，我不是故意的啦！”男友拉着我的手，着急的一直道歉：“我保证以后不会了，以后谁敢跟我和你出来一起约会，我就打死他！”

脸上挂着泪水的我，一听他这么诚意的说，不禁 “噗嗤” 地笑了出来，也在他的胸前捶打了好几下！他找了找口袋，还是老样子，没带手帕，只好用手擦掉我的眼泪，说：“对不起啦，下不为例，好不好？”

我抿着嘴，然后勉强的点了一下头，不太甘心的接受这另类的情人节！

What is happiness..?

hmm... just got home after finishing the dance rehearsal for the performance today at 7pm.. felt quite tired... but i can't stop thinking of what had striked me recently.. ya.. someone asking me to think about how to give someone happiness..

i've thought through quite a lot.. happiness can only come when someone has own the desired.. but in order to own the desired.. he or she must go through hard work and tireness.. and now we are talking about giving someone else happiness.. what if all the things that you did.. is not what he or she desired.. and thus it becomes a burden.. a hurtful burden..

and what if you are on the right track towards giving someone else happiness.. but the hard work and tireness are too much just for an exchange of one simple happiness.. is that happiness still considered as a happiness...?

after long hours of thinking through.. here's my answer for you..

in order to give someone else happiness.. of coz.. first you'll have to know what he or she desired.. and get the answer by all means.. even if you were to ask them directly for the answer... which i did.. secondly.. work towards it.. no matter how much hard work and tireness is needed for exchange.. coz once you achieved by giving others happiness.. it's worth while even though both parties may be tired.. just like studying hard for an exam.. study is indeed very hard.. and it is becoming harder nowadays.. but once you know your hardwork has been paid off coz you've got a good result.. you know it's all worth while..

happiness will not come unless hardwork and tireness is present.. just like there's no free lunch in this world.. so for my case.. i will not give up.. and i know she won't do that too.. coz she told me.. "as long as you are happy.. i will be happy too.."