Little tweety..

been five months since i came here.. life's been.. not so good.. due to army.. and negative feedbacks from recent performance.. and other personal issues.. and everything just made me wanna get out of army as fast as possible.. so i have time for things i wanna do.. and be there for someone when i'm needed..


it's been ten years.. still i never dare to look at myself performing.. and not even once where i think i'm good.. i wonder when can i live up to my own standard.. ten years of experience in dancing..? i'm a joke seriously..


and i miss that little sis of mine.. i wonder how is she doing.. but everytime i feel like giving her a text and talk to her.. somehow i feel i'm a nuisance.. oh yes she's my sister in name.. but who am i to intervene with her life..? and she's probably giving her best to study now.. so i shouldn't distract her.. probably..


maybe this is why.. coz we are all hiding.. feelings.. ourselves.. whatsoever.. perhaps there can be no day where we are truly honest.. coz of the unknown.. undetermined.. and uncertainties..


but anyway.. i love the flower that she gave me.. that sincerity remains even though flower dies.. 


i'm not making sense at all.. urgh.. probably coz i'm having a slight flu right now.. speedy recovery me.. and speedy ord me..

we all seem logical.. but then again.. there's the emotional side..