Hatred..

i hate girls.. for being so obsessed with their own feeling and never care about others..
i hate girls.. for being so secretive to hide their feeling and never to own up when it's revealed..
i hate girls.. for being so stupid coz they can't even find a better reason to leave..
i hate girls.. for being so unsure about their feeling in the end they cause troubles for others..
i hate girls.. for being so fake that they behave like a lion to those they don't like while becoming a tamed cat in front of their loved..
i hate girls.. for being so soft hearted which leads to so many problems to deal with..
i hate girls.. for being so childish to talk at the back of people who they don't like..
so in conclusion.. i hate girls.. coz these're what girls are all about..

i hate guys.. for being such a useless freak after a heartbreak..
i hate guys.. for being such a hypocrite just to make the others give up whatever they've taken from him..
i hate guys.. for being so idiotic coz they want their face so much that they can't afford to lose..
i hate guys.. for being so seeking for attention that they act like cuckoo instead of act cool..
i hate guys.. for being a liar as they claimed that they are gonna beat each other up when she is bullied but never come true..
i hate guys.. for being so strong when they are so weak inside..
i hate guys.. for being such a skirt chaser that they always forgot who is beside him just now..
so in conclusion.. i hate guys.. coz these're what guys are all about..

who deserved my love..? absolutely myself and no one else..

Filling at the brim..

shall talk only about yesterday coz today sucked big time.. well.. having lesson in the day as usual.. went to watch a Pirates of the Carribean and had cycling after that.. oh man.. the cycling session at night is great.. the wind that brushes off your face.. no worries of banging into people coz it's late at night.. woo~

well.. feeling sentimental these few days.. just don't get it why some people just don't seem to be able to understand.. i've said so many times.. haiz.. forget it if you can't get it into your head.. i'm not gonna care about that coz it's your own problem.. i've already told you.. you want something from me.. come and ask from me.. do not give me hints or whatever shit there is.. fucking hate it when you are trying to play this "guess my feeling" game.. nah.. troublesome..

i had stored too much of my feeling in this half of the year.. i need somewhere.. something.. or even someone to vent it out.. but.. well.. who could possibily let me have them all out..? i must be dreaming to even dream of venting them out.. well.. whatever..

绝情..

全部的回忆 仿佛就在枕头里
每当入眠前 碎片就会渗进去
让我记起那段美景
呆滞蜡烛息息

我想要回到过去 与你疯狂的拥紧
我不知道去向 任凭风吹飘移

念就像是遥远距离一里又一里
把我们分隔的彻底
我却还是一样想你一期又一期
永无终点永无止境
忆就像是飞奔快马一匹又一匹
残忍践踏着我的心
我微笑着面对痛苦一击又一击
尘世间也只有断肠 才得以绝情

我内心深情 被你的无情封印
红颜与知己 终究不能和为一
违背不了天的决定
心中痛楚隐隐

沉睡的爱情不知 何时才能够苏醒
心里面的战役 永远没有终尽

情就像是无色毒水一滴又一滴
是非黑白难分难明
我却不知情的喝了一瓶又一瓶
最后泪水淹没天地
爱就像是风水墨画一笔又一笔
没有颜色却很美丽
我微笑着面对痛苦一击又一击
尘世间也只有断肠 才得以绝情

Speaking..

one month had past and this blog is turning into dust.. nah.. anyway.. just here to write some crap la.. i'm feeling rather down lately.. maybe it's just coz of lack of sleep.. with performances.. piled up school works and projects.. dance troupes.. this is insane.. and i think i've pon many lessons for the sake of that stupid performance.. haiz.. i'm getting nowhere..

some words to myself.. perserverance and concentration is all you need.. once you are done with this year.. you are safe.. please.. take no more of outside influence.. including the you-know-what.. stop messing with girls.. you know they are troublesome to deal with.. you understand and you know everything that they'll do coz you've gone through it times after times.. you are sick of it aren't you..?

hmm.. feeling a bit better now.. a lesson that i learnt.. to be heartless is one way to get things done easily.. this sentence is so damn true.. and now i really understand why there're so many inhumane stuffs happening..

i'm one step closer to a devil..