So lame..

sometimes i really wonder.. if i'm really that old and experience enough to see through the reason behind.. am i really used to it..? or am i just numb to feel anything.. people always thought they are mature enough.. however when they grow older and look back at themselves.. they'll laugh at their childish acts.. and i'm going through it right now..

i really should concentrate on some serious big business.. but well.. although that doesn't seems to be strong now compared to the past.. somethig immaterial still diverts my attention.. i've been stepping back again and again.. but for every step i step back.. the fact is always one step behind my foot..

whatever it is.. i don't think i'll do anything to improve the situation.. i have no time.. no intention.. and most importantly.. no confidence for that.. for now..

and so.. now they are having this conflict over the net.. seriously.. they are just wasting time with all the updates here and there.. not only wasting my time.. as well as those who is really of help to the event.. don't know la.. oh anyway.. despite all the complaints and stuff.. i still love my life.. =P

nothing is going to be changed.. if nothing is being done..

Fated fate..

alright.. just came back from WDA meeting.. at last they did something that satisfy the term "meeting".. and it's quite nice of them to put me under the volunteer package which can access to any programme free of charge.. but too bad i won't be free on those days.. no one is accompanying me either..

next week is the dance camp.. hope it turn out well.. and also let's hope what she said will not come true coz i've done what i can to prevent that.. so it's really up to the parents whether they are to look at the numbers with bigger fonts or the numbers with small fonts.. but whatever it is.. let's hope it's gonna be enjoyable.. without any accidents or something that is unexpected..

had a good chat with her today.. or rather i've spent a long time with her.. it's been so long since i felt i have a sister looking after me.. it's a very nice feeling.. however i cannot dwell in it for too long.. if not i'm gonna be dependant again like what happened when i first came to singapore.. everywhere i go i'm always the biggest.. be it among my cousins or my classmates.. and that really sucks coz i used to be the smallest in the family.. being held so carefully on the palm and all that.. but oh well.. that's all in the past that is dreadful but a good experience.. i love my life..

things will always become the opposite when it's at its extreme..

Yet another stage..

oh great.. blogger finally fixed that xml code.. been wanting to post but disgusted by the error codes.. ok anyway.. been starting on choreographing my very first dance.. hmm.. though thinking of moves is really frustrating especially when you do not wish to repeat the same thing over and over again.. but it's still kinda fun.. and i'm really expecting something big after the performance on 2 december..

being a leader is no fun.. lucky i know a bit of everything that everyone else is doing.. if not it's gonna be shit.. hmm.. i wonder if this is part of the reason that she ask me to do the website.. oh well.. no point thinking about it if i'm not going to spend time on finding the answer..

school is relaxing.. i guess it's only the first half of the year.. or probably i'm used to it already.. then that will be great.. oh ya.. 10 june i'm going to china.. maybe i'll try to stock some music for selection.. oh man.. so much things coming up.. however i'm looking forward to them.. so i guess that's what they called "positive thinking"..

when you've realise.. reality is not cruel and stress to you anymore..

Lone wolf..

the website is driving me nuts.. the guy i'm pairing up with isn't sending me anything that he has done or rather he is suppose to do.. tried contacting him and he didn't even replied me once.. goddamnit la.. what kinda organisation is this? all you do is just giving orders without helping out at all except for some of them.. and i really mean some..

and now it reminds me of the thing happened on sunday where the people from SHHK dance troupe are having a meeting about a project and i was appointed to be the leader of the troupe.. oh well.. personally i don't feel any dislike towards this.. in fact i think this thing is going on and the result is just as what godma thought it would be.. but i guess some are just scared of taking up respoinsibilities.. and ya.. since this is just so new to all of us so i'm not surprised that they are unprepared of the whole thing..

yea.. so no matter what happened.. i will never let the troupe be as disorganised as that organisation.. suck it up man.. they all have to be more passionate so that it motivates them to work as a group in that non-profit organisation la.. so damn angry over this..

everyone is different.. that's why the argument..

Branches..

woot.. finally had my desktop in function.. it'd been spoiled since a year ago.. i can finally enjoy the moments of having my msn and media player on while doing my project at the same time.. since the programs i'm using are memory suckers..

today is the first time i was told to choreograph half of a dance all by myself.. since mr chong has choreographed half of it.. but well.. due to the fact that i performed this dance like years ago.. there's not much change in the formation and moves except for the parts that i forgot.. which is like near to half of it.. haha.. anyway.. it's kinda great though.. i can finally do something that is free of restriction.. just let my wild imagination set off and there.. i've got something..

assignments yet again.. oh man.. i started to hate to think about stories.. it's just.. troublesome.. having to do this and that just to write a script.. that just sucks.. oh well.. at least there's some shooting of scenes and actings to do.. that's something to look forward to..

i guess praising sometimes really does wonders.. maybe i should do that more often to the others.. hmm.. oh well.. let's see..

to recognize a person is the same as adding worth in him..