It's for real..

sometimes.. somethings are better left unknown.. coz once you know it.. you'll learn that it's so goddamn serious that you don't know what to do to correct it.. or maybe i should say you don't know where to start with..

i'm not sure whether it's just me.. but i finally understood what those harsh words meant after watching the video.. it really sucked.. i sucked.. we sucked.. the whole thing sucked.. to think that i was so drawn into it when i was performing.. and it actually came out that not even i met my standard.. these are not words of regretting.. but to blame myself for not being good enough..

what's more? personal stuffs are getting really annoying.. i wish i could solve that as soon as possible but it looks like it's gonna be delayed for some time.. i feel so damn FUBAR.. feel like telling that person how i feel but i guess that person is busy enough already.. alright.. on my own again..

what's most frightening is that there's no mirror for you to look at yourself..