Habit of caring..

been busy with assignments.. and my dance composition.. i totally don't understand why do we have to choreograph dance in that way.. being abstract is so not me.. oh well.. maybe like what someone has said.. although we were told that we can be ourselves there.. you still are bind to their system and thus having to go their way..

though it really isn't pleasing to go their way.. well.. being one of the four out of twenty-five pieces to show in the showcase kinda make me feel a bit relief.. at least my attempt to go their way is not in vain..

maybe i shouldn't be writing this here.. but i really think nafa has a serious problem in choreographing dance.. like.. what makes faun a faun when the "faun" is wearing indian costume..? and i totally don't understand why can it be called contemporary indian dance just coz it has improvisation work in it.. neither do i understand how can they call a supposedly a ballet piece to be indian rework piece just by changing the hand gesture..

despite all that i still see them posting an according-to-them email from the public saying how our department made a good attempt in merging eastern and western dance together and it was great and all.. i really wonder who that idiot is.. or maybe it's just a fake encouragement from the office.. oh well.. who knows..?

hmm.. time will come i guess.. not the time for me to understand.. but the time for me to leave them and enjoy my two years army.. ok that totally sucks.. lol.. oh man.. i wanna go china to study choreography badly..

oh by the way.. is it weird to go for movie alone..? why are so many people shocked when i tell them that i actually do that sometimes.. =/

freedom is when you have break through restrictions..

Forbidden colours..

The wounds on your hands never seem to heal
I thought all I needed was to believe

Here am i, a lifetime away from you
The blood of christ, or the beat of my heart
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes

Senseless years thunder by
Millions are willing to give their lives for you
Does nothing live on?

Learning to cope with feelings aroused in me
My hands in the soil, buried inside of myself
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes in you once again

I'll go walking in circles
While doubting the very ground beneath me
Trying to show unquestioning faith in everything
Here am i, a lifetime away from you
The blood of christ, or a change of heart

My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes in you once again

those that don't kill you.. only make yourself stronger..

Another road..

i was born in heaven in disguise.. banished into hell when i know the truth.. and still climbing that spiked vine.. though like a star.. i see sparkling lights shining above.. guiding me while i'm on my way to set my foot back on land.. however it is just a star.. which disappears with an eye's blink..
你要加油哦
lost on my way.. for i've been following lights coming from everywhere.. it is then.. i heard a lovely voice.. it's like those stars.. appearing only when it does.. but it last long enough for me to know the direction..
不管怎样都一定要撑下去
i'll never forget today.. how that lovely voice ceased my pain with a simple greeting.. it seems to open another path.. to where i do not know.. but never in my life.. have i felt so tranqulized.. never have i known.. that happiness can be so simple.. i wish to walk on that path.. no matter what lies at the end..
很抱歉除了说加油以外
you are the one who taught me simplicity.. a weight on the other end of my balance.. for that i thank you.. when the time comes.. when i finally made my humble offer.. hopefully you'll accept me as a shelter.. and hopefully i can repel all those which are trying to destroy that simplicity you have and have given me unconciously.. i love you..
我什么也做不了

待花谢之时.. 便可指花开之日..

Still motion..

theoretically i should be doing my assignments.. theoretically i should be afraid coz i haven't finish my choreography for my dance composition showing tomorrow.. theoretically i should be worrying about things that i should be worried about.. but somehow those theories don't work on me theoretically today.. or maybe most of the time.. i guess that "free n' easy" has got into my blood already.. oh well..

hasn't really been productive this few days.. and the best part is.. i don't feel remorseful at all.. how great can that be? oh and it's the first time i feel that shopping without having to care about money is so fun.. i have this $20 ntuc voucher from hui guan and my mother's $100 ntuc voucher from her company and so i went for a little shopping spree.. and believe me even though they only sell food and drinks which is like daily needs.. but it's enough to get you high.. lol.. i was like carrying five big plastic bags home.. luckily my house is just across the road..

i found this anime like three days ago named "When the cicadas cry" when translated.. and it's quite nice.. it's kinda hard to brief the story coz it's just too complicated.. and kinda spooky too.. and no it's nothing like detective conan although it involves killing.. lol.. very nice.. but people with weak heart shouldn't watch it unless you want some thrill badly..

i'm not blogging anything useful do i? ah well.. as i said theory doesn't work well on me today.. oh did anyone know of any lyrics competition or something? i need some other side dishes other than my main dish..

oh.. one last thing.. if relationship is just about getting a good looking partner.. i guess this world would be much more peaceful.. hmm.. and i think my theoretical side of me woke up just now..

even though there are multiple choices.. there's only one answer..