Surrounding circle..

weeks ago i was preparing for performance.. just the day before performance i heard saddening news.. and the day after performance i had to supervise a camp.. and now.. after the camp i engaged myself with every night practises with those kids..

is it luck or what? that i kept myself busy to stop thinking of personal stuffs.. and after seeing those problems the kids have.. it's so childish that i couldn't stand it.. but somehow it just negates the sadness of losing a motivation.. and now i'm devoting myself into polishing them.. into a better dancer.. and also better well-being..

i'll do what i can.. and i'll give it my all.. for those things that's beyond my abilities.. i'll wish for their success and happiness.. but if possible.. i hope i wouldn't need to wish for them at all.. so i could do something for them.. i guess i'm just as powerless as every other human..

don't complain if you wanna love.. don't love if you wanna complain..

Broken string..

somehow i feel like writing this.. so here we go..

i wanna get over army quickly to go china to study choreography..

i want the whole singapore to know how good our troupe is by performing in the assembly of schools..

i wanna set up a dance academy and spread godma's legacy.. with a general system similar to china..

i wanna be stronger.. so i can protect everyone around me..

i want everyone around me to be happy.. so i can be happy too..

and i'll forever remind myself.. that her happiness is my happiness..

love is not to own.. but to own means you love..

Principle..

seems like everyone has their own problems ey.. haha.. it's just like reading my past posts.. i will laugh them off like what the hell am i thinking right then.. it's like looking at all those yellowish.. ragged photos.. while recalling what kinda stupid thing you've done..

from young i've always been receiving.. you know.. being the smallest in family and all.. spoiled brat you can say.. even till now i still haven't got rid of that bad habit.. but at least i learnt to give.. after coming to a turning point at a certain point of my life..

so when i learnt to give.. i also learnt that there are people who are there to receive.. people who needs and deserved my givings.. however at that point of time.. as a human.. i just couldn't accept the fact that when you are giving.. there is no guarantee that you'll receive anything..

and now.. i've come to know just recently.. that you don't expect to receive if you decided to give.. coz then it defeats the purpose of giving..

if you wanna give and give it all out.. don't do it half-hearted which makes you sway from your path.. anyway if you really desire to receive from those who you gave.. isn't a smile from them enough already?

i've seen people giving and got frustrated for not receiving back.. and ya.. it's just like looking back at the me 3 years ago.. and when i try to talk to them.. again i saw the old me.. being stubborn and all.. refusing to listen to anyone.. not that i listen to others now anyway.. oh well..

i'm not trying to show off how much i know.. i'm trying to give all i can.. to all people who needs those givings.. and i'm not trying to show off how much i can give.. i'm just trying to absorb all your glum faces.. sorrow.. sadness.. anything negative.. and get the smiles back on your currently damned face..

若想付出.. 付其极出.. 莫想回报.. 回其不报..