First step with hands in my pocket..

oh great.. i'm back to square one.. lol.. i think i give myself too much hope.. i'm such a freaking fool.. this is so not like me at all.. alright.. 哭过了.. 就该继续上路.. now is the best time for me to leave.. guess i won't come back until i've found the reason to be back.. yea.. decided..

look at the time now.. i type the previous paragraph for half an hour.. amazing.. maybe it's just difficult for me to type that down.. i once came across this sentence and i finally get to know what exactly it means.. the hardest part of holding on is letting go.. how nicely it fits me.. =)

i find myself changing.. changing for the better.. lots of my thinking are so different than in the past.. but at the same time.. i lost myself.. i'm influenced.. but.. nevermind.. here i am at square one and i'm gonna find the old me back again.. maybe i can also get to know the reason to go back at the same time..

hmm.. at last i felt better.. i have no more troubles.. most of them are settled.. while for the others.. i shall kept them away and settled them again another time.. or maybe i don't even have to settle them coz they don't trouble me anymore.. how great.. and i shall now officially declare.. my new life.. starts.. now..